At first it was all freedom, fun, and games for Lilly Fairfield. Being a freshman in college was supposed to create some of the best memories of her life, especially with her best friend, Lauren, and longtime boyfriend, Sander, by her side.
But the excitement begins to slip away when the people closest to her start to change. They begin moving in a direction Lilly doesn’t want to go, forcing Lilly to be faced with a decision. Should she fight for her relationships with both Sander and Lauren or move on to something different? Something unknown. Someone like…
Colton Davenport. Colton isn’t Lilly’s typical type. He’s shockingly sexy with his colorful tattoos, shiny silver lip ring, and ear gauges. His smile alone leaves her breathless. Then again, she hasn’t had a specific type other than Sander. When she meets Colton she feels an automatic attraction that stuns her into utter stillness. She can’t look away, doesn’t want to look away.
Lilly must decide between a life with Sander, a life she always thought she wanted, and an unknown path with Colton.
Will Lilly make the right choices for her future, Becoming More?
**This book is a New Adult Romance – intended for a mature audience.**
“That looked like more than friendship to me,” Clarissa explains. “That looked like you two wanted the entire world to see you were together.”
My eyes widen. “No way! We didn’t kiss or anything!”
Clarissa crosses her legs. “Lilly, do you really think that’s the only way to show people around you that you are taken? Colton was all but pissing on you, telling all the other guys around that you are his.”
“But I’m not his,” I argue.
“You sure about that?” she asks kindly.
“I’m nobody’s.” I look down at my hands and rub them against my jeans.
“Well then you should probably tell Colton that. I don’t think he got the memo.”
“Oh please! You’re the one that told me he likes to mess around with a bunch of different girls! You said he doesn’t do relationships,” I tell her.
“I also told you that he’s different with you. I’ve never seen him act like that with a girl before. He’s in to you.”
What girl doesn’t dream of her happily ever after? Having it all mapped out for you before you even go to college…this sounded perfect to Lilly. She and Sander were high school sweethearts and they were headed off to college to start their new lives, their best friend Lauren was going with them. Seems like it should be wonderful! Well within the first 2 chapters I already disliked Sander and Lauren. I could tell that they were not as good as Lilly perceived them to be, I mean come on, they ditched her at their first ever college party…no call or text, just disappeared.
Well, I am glad that this happened because it allowed Lilly to leave that party and end up meeting a new group of people. She has an immediate connection with them and they bring her to another party…this is where she meets Colton. Standing in the kitchen all sexy with his tattoos, lip ring, and ear gauges. I loved him from the start! He was just such a nice guy, a gentleman if you will.
Colton and Lilly begin to spend time with each other, seeing as Sander is too busy and is a complete twatwaffle. I don’t really know what he was like in high school but this version that Sander seems to be turning into pisses me off. You can see that Lilly is torn and that she really wants things to work out. However, she cannot deny her attraction to Colton, she is nervous around him but they have this ease when they are together.
When Sander hurts Lilly, first by being on drugs and then by physically harming her, she turns to Colton to come get her. He of course complies and is amazing.
“ ‘What do you mean I had no reason to come and get you? You said you needed me so I came,’ he says it with honest confusion in his voice.”
I was ecstatic that he rescued her, knight in shining armor and all that. I was really pulling for Lilly to come to her senses and move on with her life, away from Sander. I mean, all she could really think about anyway was Colton.
“He hasn’t left my mind since the moment I met him at that first party at his house, and I think he might always stay there.”
I kept thinking “This is it! They are going to be together!” Well boy was I wrong, then I was right, then I was wrong….talk about whiplash! Lilly could not seem to break the bond that she had with Sander but she wanted to be with Colton. Lilly talks to her mom about what is going on and she got some good advice,
“Sometimes the hardest choices in life end up being the best ones we ever made. It might not be easy Lillian, but it might be worth it.”
This was one of those stories where I was yelling at my Kindle, trying to tell the characters what to do (because you know…it could work ;) ) Colton just keeps on being sweet and being there for Lilly. He wants to do right by her and take things slow **swoon**
“ ‘I’m going to find every single place that makes your knees do that. I’ll find every naked piece of your skin that gives you the chills when I stroke it,’ he pledges. ‘And then I’m going to drive you crazy with my touch. Do you understand? Every last inch of you will know the graze of my tongue and lips.’ ”
….then he tells her…
“Not today, babe.”
All I wanted to know was what would it take for Lilly to let go of Sander and be with Colton…I needed her to have her HEA. I didn’t like the decisions she made along the way but I liked that she was trying. She made new friends and lost some old ones. Will it all work out for her? Read Becoming More to find out!
Well as boring as it sounds… I really wasn’t a wild child. Besides getting drunk with my friends at Lauren’s house, the second wildest thing I ever did was sneaking out of my bedroom at night to meet with Sander. To me, that’s wild!
It wasn’t really that I followed Sander or that he followed me. All three of us knew we were going to Stone Oak because besides Sander, Lauren and I had no idea what we wanted to major in. Stone Oak was far enough away from my parents for me to feel freedom but close enough that I could still see them whenever I wanted to.
Sander and I were really happy. I know people look down on me because I didn’t leave as soon as our relationship started changing. Yeah, it makes me look weak. But this is my life and I was scared. I was immature. I didn’t know what to do because I had loved Sander so much and he was becoming a different person right before my eyes. How do you easily walk away from someone that you thought was your future? Well it’s really freakin hard! But yes, when things started changing between Sander and I – I wanted what we used to have back. I wanted our easy friendship, our love… I wanted to feel like I was still his world. It just took me awhile to realize that I was never going to have that with him again.
Hot. Jesus, I felt hot all over. There’s something about his eyes that draw a person in. I wasn’t used to that sort of response from seeing a guy. Especially a guy that looks like him! But that laugh of his drew me in and that damn lip ring just kept begging for my attention. I couldn’t look away. I just felt like – I had to know this guy.
I think it would have helped me out of my stubbornness a little bit. I mean, I really felt like Colton was confused about me. After everything I heard from Clarissa – I was sure… Absolutely positive that he wouldn’t want an actual relationship with me. I knew there were feelings but I didn’t realize how deep his feelings ran. Add my confusing feelings for Sander… I was just lost.
College life was my get away. My home life sucked ass. My dad ended up marrying this woman that’s closer to my age than to his. She has this high-pitched squeaky voice that’s like razor blades in my ears. Mom said I had to spend time with him through out the summers but I couldn’t get away fast enough. So in college I made sure I had fun. Yeah… I slept around some. I don’t think I was a whore by any means but I wasn’t waiting for a special someone to come along. I didn’t want a special anything to come along. I wanted to party, work on my art, and go to sleep at night. Most nights were spent with my friends. Then came Lilly.
You’ve seen her right? That girl is beautiful. When my eyes fell on her my world tilted. God, I’m such a pussy. I saw her standing there looking directly at me and all I could see was this girl that looked like she had no clue what she was doing there but that she wasn’t going anywhere either. She was stuck in one spot and hell if I wasn’t stuck too. At first I just wanted to talk to her, get a feel for her… If that went well – she wanted to come back to my room I wasn’t going to say no. But then she answered her phone and I knew she had a boyfriend and a feeling I never felt before washed over me. I was jealous. I was fucking jealous over a girl I had just met and her prick of a boyfriend and I didn’t even know his name.
Well like I said, she’s hot. *laughs* But besides that, my girl, well she’s a sweetheart. Loyal to a fault. When she cares about someone she does it with her whole heart. I can literally feel her love for me. It’s in her actions, of course, but it’s also in her eyes. It’s in the way she talks tome. It’s the way her hand feels in mine. How can you explain love to someone that has never felt it? It’s everything. She’s everything. Everything that Lilly is – is what draws me in.
I picked up my first guitar in middle school. I’d always had a love for music but I never thought I would actually be able to play. Well in 6th grade everyone had to pick an instrument to focus on through that school year. I chose guitar. I was addicted as soon as my thumb strummed across those strings.
It’s beautiful. It’s one of those voices that reminds you of a mother singing to put her child to bed. It’s gentle… tender. A sweet voice. There’s an innocence to her voice that makes me want to listen to her. It’s not an Adele voice by any means. She doesn’t have a strong voice that can hit a range of notes. She sings sweetly.
I thought we’d have fun. I thought we’d go out, party some. Maybe make some mistakes along the way. I had a feeling I might make a few mistakes along the way but Lilly would never find out about those accidents. We’d be alright. I’d ask her to marry me when we graduated and things would be good.
Well at first we were happy. I was excited to get away with her and be able to see each other whenever we felt like it. Quickly, I realized I wanted more than Lilly. I wanted to have fun. Whatever that meant. I wanted to do what *I* wanted to do. I’ve never had that option. I’ve never been allowed to choose what I would have fun doing. It was always what my parents wanted and then I had to do right by Lilly. Well then… I didn’t care. I had college. I had the opportunity to live it up. And I did. I partied. I fucked. You know I started doing drugs. I got stupid.
Oh I knew it. But I wasn’t about to let her go off and fuck some other guys. Are you kidding me? No. She was mine and she was going to stay that way. I didn’t care how much I fucked up… She wasn’t leaving because if she left then that would mean I really was a different person. A person that no longer had Lilly and I wasn’t ready to completely let go of that. For some reason I made myself believe that if I let go of Lilly then I was letting go everything I had planned for my future… But in reality I was shoving my future out the door by all the other choices I was making.
I got tired of the burden on my shoulders. I’m sure I’m not the only person that has felt this way and I’m also sure I won’t be the last. My parents always had these incredibly high expectations for me. I either succeeded in them or I disappointed them. When I got to college and they weren’t there to watch my every move – I wanted to make the best of it. I wanted to experience everything before I started on that life my family had mapped out for me. I just took it too far. Way too damn far.
Bayli Lane didn’t realize how much she loved creating a world from nothing until college. She went to Marian University where she majored in Communications but in her spare time wrote and read. Her love for reading is what really brought out her desire to create her own novel. After starting loads of stories and not finishing them, she finally decided it was time to put her passion to work. Becoming More is her first novel but certainly not her last. Bayli lives with her husband, Tim, in Indiana where she is probably sitting with a large cup of coffee and her computer working on her next book.
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