So how did I get myself into this situation, you ask? Simple: desperation. When you’re faced with being homeless and hungry or taking off your clothes for money, the choice is easier than you’d imagine. That doesn’t make it easy, though. Oh no. I hate it, in fact. There’s nothing I’d like more than to quit and never go into another bar again, never hear the techno beat pulsing in my ears again, never feel the lecherous gazes of horny men again.
Then, one day, I meet a man. He’s in my club, front and center. He watches me do my routine, and his gaze is full of hunger. Not the kind of desire I’m used to though. It’s something different. Something hotter, deeper, and more possessive. I know who he is; of course I do. Everyone knows who Dawson Kellor is. He’s People Magazine’s Sexiest Man alive. He’s the hottest actor in Hollywood. He’s the man hand-picked for the role of Rhett Butler in the long-awaited remake of Gone With the Wind.
He’s the kind of man who can have any woman in the entire world with a mere crook of his finger. So what’s he doing looking at me like he has to have me? And how do I resist him when he looks at me with those intoxicating, changeable, quicksilver eyes?
I’m a virgin, and he’s an American icon of male sexuality. I’m a stripper, and he’s a man used to getting anything and everything he wants. And he wants me. I know I should say no, I know he’s the worst kind of player…but what my mind knows, my body and my heart may not.
And then things get complicated.
What’s a girl to do??? A preacher daddy who never really loved her like a father should and an amazing mother who passes away too soon. Grey and her father never saw eye to eye and she was kept sheltered from the world. Grey has an amazing talent as a dancer and she has to practically beg him to let her take classes. Their world falls apart when her mom dies and Grey packs up and leaves, against her fathers wishes, and she heads to USC to pursue her new found love – the film industry. (I was confused at this point in the book because the timeline seemed to be off, I’m not quite sure what happened.) Two years into her college career and she has no friends, no life, and now no money. I thought for sure she would call her father for help but NO….she is too proud and is determined to do this on her own. Grey begins searching for a job and finds nothing (not even a fast food restaurant, really?) so back to my question…what’s a girl to do??? Strip, that’s what! Desperation isn’t even the right word. This is the last thing that the virgin daughter of a preacher wants to do yet she does it….getting physically sick before and after each shift. She is also doing a film internship amidst all of this…talk about a full load.
“Dawson’s touch is hypnotism made flesh. I can’t resist it. I don’t know what’s happening to me, but it’s terrifying me.”
After the awkward night in the VIP room Grey returns to her regularly scheduled program of school and her internship. Oh it’s not going to be that easy though….guess who she is assigned to assist during filming, none other than Dawson Kellor! I am not one for enjoying coincidences but this made me giggle….of course this is where the story is going! If I said that Dawson was intense before, it gets better. He follows Grey when she leaves, hauls her back to her dorm, feeds her (she is a starving student after all) and then he gives her his car. I must say that I was a little overwhelmed by him and then he says
“You know what else? I’m a guy. I pee and miss the toilet. I take shits. I eat cheeseburgers. I watch baseball and drink beer.”
I can’t say that he’s “just a guy” but oooooooohhhhh he seems to have it all.
The relationship between Grey and Dawson builds quickly, she tries to resist and isn’t any good at it. He consumes every part of her life and works himself into it whether she wants him to or not. Once he gives her what she needs ;) she is a goner.
“And now I’ll never return from this place, for I know the taste of temptation. I’ve sinned; I’ve fallen.”
Grey is scared and she keeps running but Dawson keeps following her and tearing down her walls. The rest of the book takes jumps forward and I felt like we missed out on some of their developing relationship and how they got to be at a certain point. I would have liked to seen more of the in between stuff from the blossoming of the relationship to where the book ended. I will say this….holy schmexy steamy hotness! Jasinda is quite descriptive is this book and I approve ;) You know it must be good because…
“I walk to the bathroom, although hobble is a more appropriate word. My privates throb, ache, and twinge. My thighs tremble and hurt. Everything down there aches, but the memory of how that ache came about is sugar-sweet.”
ARC provided for an honest review
This book was HOT, that much cannot be denied! It has a lot of really good emotions and of course I cried, because really I should just come to expect it by now if I am reading anything by Jasinda Wilder. I feel very conflicted because while I enjoyed this book very much, there were parts that I wasn’t too crazy on, overall though I feel the good outweighs the bad.
The story is really about a young girl named Grey Amundsen. She is a sheltered pastor’s daughter who has never had friends, a boyfriend, or is allowed to do anything “sinful”. However, she loves to dance and is extremely talented. Her mother is her biggest ally in life, she helps to give her some freedom from her father’s strict rules and guidelines of what he will allow. Grey’s life is basically whatever he says she can and can’t do. She finds a second love in film, and wants to pursue that as her future, but of course that is not her in Daddy’s plans of what his daughter can do. When tragedy strikes and Grey must make a choice to defy her Daddy or stay and give up her dream, Grey’s life will no longer be the same.
Here is where the story really took life for me. I felt Grey’s life became her own and I was cheering for her, but my heart was breaking for her as well. In order to survive Grey must do the ultimate sin and becomes a stripper. I was really impressed that this wasn’t a glorification of stripping it was gritty and raw. It showed Grey’s pain, and how she battled with herself and her pride. Plus it’s where the schmexalicious Dawson Kellor comes in!! Their encounter is off the charts. I mean here is Grey, timid, hates her job, and then she meets Dawson. He is the hottest celebrity, but it is like he sees through her.
“I don’t-I don’t do extras. You can’t touch me.”
“Yet here I am, touching you.”
Dawson is seriously such a great male character. He is a rich, hot, bad boy, but yet there is something amazing and wonderful about him. Grey and Dawson’s chemistry is crazy! Dawson fights for Grey, which is something he has never had to for any girl before. Their relationship has serious obstacles to go through, Grey has some major issues to overcome as well. She has some serious trust problems and she shuts down a lot.
“Say something, Grey. Jesus. I just put my goddamn heart out on a wire for you, and you’re not saying anything.”
There were some parts like I said that I wasn’t totally over the moon about, I felt some of the story line left me needing a bit more, like the ending with her father. I think the time gaps for me were also something I wasn’t expecting. However, I was able to keep reading and wanting more from the story and about Grey and Dawson.
I will say if ANYONE can write some amazing sex scenes its Jasinda Wilder.. HOLY SHIT!! It was so hot!!!! The book is great that it balances sex scenes and the story, that is one thing I have come to love about this author. Jasinda does an amazing job with making sure your engaged in the story as well as gives you the steam. The few points above is what kept me from going higher, however I definitely think this is a really great read!!
New York Times and USA Today bestselling author Jasinda Wilder is a Michigan native with a penchant for titillating tales about sexy men and strong women. When she’s not writing, she’s probably shopping, baking, or reading.
Some of her favorite authors include Nora Roberts, JR Ward, Sherrilyn Kenyon, Liliana Hart and Bella Andre.
She loves to travel and some of her favorite vacations spots are Las Vegas, New York City and Toledo, Ohio.
You can often find Jasinda drinking sweet red wine with frozen berries and eating a cupcake.
Jasinda is represented by Kristin Nelson of the Nelson Literary Agency.
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