I met him at a carnival, of all corny places. The summer I turned eighteen, in that chaos of neon lights and cheap thrills, I met a man so sweet, so beautiful, he seemed to come from another world. We had one night: intense, scary, real. Then I ran, like I always do. Because I didn’t want to be abandoned again.
But I couldn’t run far enough.
I knew him as Evan that night. When I walked into his classroom, he became Mr. Wilke.
I don’t know if what we’re doing is wrong. The law says one thing; my heart says screw the law. I can’t let him lose his job. And I can’t lose him.
In the movies, this would have a happy ending. I grow up. I love, I lose, I learn. And I move on. But this is life, and there’s no script. You make it up as you go along.
And you don’t pray for a happy ending. You pray for it to never end.
BOOKGASM!! Yes I am suffering from an incredible one. Leah Raeder contacted us as a review request. We have 100s of these come through and we try to get to them all but our list is really long. Long story short, we contacted Leah to set up a review and she told us about her blog tour so we joined. Well THANK YOU LEAH!! This book was everything and more. I can’t even begin to tell you the unbelievable writing. I mean lyrical and captivating. I still can not believe that it is a story about a student and a teacher. Not only that it is about something so taboo but that I was encouraging it throughout the story.
Some points to make:
1. She is 18. She is not some naïve 15 year old girl!
2. They do not KNOW he is a teacher and she is a student when they meet.
3. I love them so if you don’t like it.. shhhhh
Maise O’Malley is seriously such a FAN FUCKING TASTIC character! I mean holy shit! She has the worlds worst mother, no real friends, but she is so strong. She meets Evan while facing her fears at a carnival. She had a tradgedy happen on a roller coaster (her stuffed animal died)… seriously you will be amazed at this story… anyway this is where she meets him. She doesn’t know his name, or who he is but they can feel something between them. Maise and Evan get together ;) again not knowing who the other is. They have this profound soul deep connection, and again the writing.. just WOW
“I see the lights every night. It seems like the whole world has figured out how to be happy, but no one’s letting me in on the secret.”
Evan Wilke, ummm yeah reminds me of a teacher I had in High School you know you had one too the one you were like “if only”. Yeah all the girls love him and would do rude things to him. He is really a cool character though, he is fighting the fact that he is falling in love with an 18 year old girl. They know it is wrong but they can’t seem to stay away from each other. I can’t fully explain what it is that drew me to like him so much but I do, I really love him. He wants to protect Maise and doesn’t care that others may find out about them, she is worth it. He knows that she has never truly felt loved and he wants to give that to her. Oh my god the sex is OFF THE CHARTS!!
I loved that he forces her to deal with things, to question herself. She provides the same to him. I couldn’t put it down. I cried for them in some parts. Maise’s view of the world is so awful because of all she has been through.
“When you’re a wounded animal in the company of jackals, you can either cower and submit, or feign strength. Wear your blood like a red badge of courage. That’s all I was doing.”
This to me was so much more than a love story. It is about love, loss, truth, consequences for our actions, and forgiveness. You have to make choices and those choices will affect your life. Maise and Evan made many choices that they were forced to deal with. Even at 18 she had to make decisions that would ultimately decide which direction her life would go. I felt every emotion with her. I wanted to cry, laugh, and hug her because I think she is what we all are at that age. A little naïve, a little scared, and wanting to be loved.
“We get bigger, and older, but part of us always retains that small rabbit heart, trembling furiously, secretively, with wonder and fear. There’s no irony in it. No semantics or subtext. Only red blood and green grass and silver stars.”
Serioulsy, BUY THIS BOOK.. I am telling you it is ridiculously amazing and I am still recovering from it. The ending left me messaging her with PLEASE TELL ME THERE IS ANOTHER BOOK BECAUSE I NEED MORE!! There is no cliffhanger and it is intended as a stand alone.. I am just greedy and love them so I want more..lol
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Writes pretentiously lyrical YA and adult fiction of various genres. Loves zombies, velociraptors, and other world-ending things. Copies her bio from Twitter because she’s lazy.
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