Ever and Cade,
Sorry I vanished like I did. I’m not sure I can even explain things. I don’t know when I’ll be back. IF I’ll be back. I’m not sure of anything, except that I love you, Ever. You’re my twin, my best friend, and leaving you was the hardest thing I’ve ever done. I know you don’t understand. Maybe you never will. I hope you don’t, honestly. It would be easier that way. That’s cowardly, I’m sure.
Cade, take care of her. Love her, the way she deserves. The way you always have, for forever and always.
If I could ask you anything, it’s that you remember me as I was, and forget me as I am.
I’m sorry, and goodbye, and I love you.
I am in awe of Jasinda Wilder. Having just finished Saving Forever, my heart is sad because I don’t want to say goodbye to these characters. They have slowly seeped into my heart and I am full of wonderment over their entire journey. This series has blown me away and I truly believe Jasinda has outdone herself. Her writing is pure perfection—you are able to feel her pouring her heart and soul into this story and just sit in amazement thinking about the intricacy of her words.
Ever awakens from her coma and is completely lost. She is slowly recovering physically, relearning how to do things that were second nature to her. She longs to paint, to lose herself in her passion. Emotionally—she’s broken. She needs Cade and longs the way things were “before”. She knows he’s distant, lost in his own thoughts, his own mind, but has no idea where his mind is at or what he’s going through. He’s holding back from her, and she doesn’t know how to reach him. She doesn’t know how to get him back.
“You’re not…I don’t know you. You’re not the same. I’m trying, Cade. I’m workin gas hard as I can to…to get better for you. To be the woman you knew. I’m sorry I’m not there yet, but I will be. I’ll be there for you. I’m here. And I need you, but you’re not…I feel like I can’t reach you.”
Cade is dealing with the aftermath of the mess his world became while Ever was in a coma. The guilt he’s feeling, the “what if’s”, and the self-loathing are eating him alive. He doesn’t know how to move forward, he’s stuck.
“I’m sorry. Fuck, Ever. I’m sorry.” For betraying you. “For being broken when you need me to be whole… For…for everything.”
Eden does what she does best—she runs. Not able to escape the guilt and face the mistakes she’s made, she leaves town to hide. The secrets and betrayal she carries leads her to her childhood summer home where she tries to figure out how to face the mess that she’s made.
“It was cruel of me. To him but to Ever, most of all. Just vanishing, with no explanation? I didn’t know how else to handle it. Anything else would lead to the truth, and I just couldn’t, wouldn’t, lay that on Cade. But especially not on Ever. Not now… And so I was here. Alone. On a beach.”
We meet Carter who Eden runs into at the beach. He has his own secrets and grief to bear. He hasn’t spoken a word in a year, until he meets Eden and finds his voice. He is drawn to her and wants to be her friend-for now. And that’s what they become. He is amazing to her. He wants her to be happy. A beautiful friendship develops. He understands her in so many ways and the reasons for her choices.
“Unless you’d lost someone who was a huge, vital part of your life, you simply couldn’t understand the agony, the desperation, the way that every day seemed impossible. Each breath hurt. Each second, each hour was an eternity of hurt. You’d do anything to stop the pain. To escape the torment, the ache inside, the gaping hole where that person should be.”
The turn of events and paths that these characters take will have you sobbing. You will be breathless, in need of a big box of tissues, a bottle of wine and a support group. I am so grateful for having read Jasinda’s amazing story. You will be emotional, torn, and engrossed to last word. Pure brilliance!!!!
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