I used to have a great life. My little world was bright. I had no complaints. My perfectly simple life made the fall from grace that much more devastating. I plummeted from the heavenly little bubble that I shared with Jake. I fell fast and hard straight into the fiery pits of hell. The knowledge of how things used to be is a bittersweet torture that refuses me even one moment of respite. I live in a painful reverie that I can’t escape.
I had it good once.
That’s gone now.
All of it disappeared like vapor into the ether. I’m a lost woman, wandering through grief and struggling to come to terms with my new title: widow. My family says I need understanding and closure. I say a cigarette and a bottle of wine is a much better option for instant gratification.
I’m the awkward, depressed one standing in the corner making everyone around me miserably uncomfortable. I’m the one with vacant eyes that society strives to help but can’t. I’m the one who hands out tight smiles and derisive snorts. I’m the widow adrift in this world with no direction. No meaning. No hope. No vital sign.
Sadie sets out on a journey to healing without knowing that things will get far worse before they get better. Despite her general indifference to organ donation, she finds herself on a journey to seek out the only people who benefited from her husband’s tragic death.
Resentment runs rampant as she meets the thriving organ recipients. Anger and jealousy spiral, sending the delicate structure of Sadie’s emotions into a tailspin.
Alexander McBride got a second chance—one that he didn’t necessarily want. Alexander is a game changer for Sadie. She hates him for his health but can’t help feeling at home in his presence. He soothes her grief in a way that is intoxicating, addictive even.
The heart that once fell in love with her now resides in Alexander McBride’s chest. It’s a circumstance that forces her to wage an internal war fueled by grief, anger, guilt, love, lust, and loyalty.
Sadie must discover the things that are vital to going on with her life if she has any hope of finding her way through the all-consuming grief that dominates every waking moment.
Losing someone you love is earth shattering. Your heart stops. Time stops. The world keeps moving, yet you’re standing still. It hurts to breathe. You would do anything, would give anything to go back in time. Vital Signs was a heartbreaking story sharing Sadie Parker’s journey through grief and healing. Yes, it may sound sad, but is a must read incredible story!!!
Sadie is in love with her life-long sweetheart—her soul mate, her husband. They have a beautiful life. One tragic night, her world is shattered. Her husband Jake is murdered right in front of her. Soul crushing, devastating… I cried like a baby. She hurts. She doesn’t understand—why him, why her. Jake’s organs are donated and on the insistence of her family, she sets out to meet several of the people who received his organs. These meetings are not what Sadie wanted. She feels a lot of anger and resentment towards the people that lived when her husband couldn’t.
“How am I supposed to let go of Jake if there are pieces of him still out here, living on in some perfect stranger?”
Alexander “Zander” McBride has had a wild past. Drinking, partying, lots of women and sex, he feels undeserving of the heart transplant he received. Having lived in the limelight of his Governor father and being famous himself, he retreated into a sheltered life, trying so hard to resist reverting back to the life he was so used to living.
The day comes where Sadie is to meet the person who received Jake’s heart. Zander affects her more than she ever thought anyone could. The guilt and the torment she feels has her world spinning. The spark between Sadie and Zander is undeniable. They are drawn to one another like a moth to a flame. She fights these feelings—afraid that if she gives into them, she is being disloyal to her husband. She promised to love her husband til the day she died. How can she possibly move on? How can it be okay to love another? But then he says things like this…
“I don’t think it’s a secret that I want nothing more than to kiss you, touch you, feel you. You’re all I think about…”
Just wow!! He was perfect! I loved Zander. He was hot, sweet, kind and patient with Sadie. The moments where he tried to push down Sadie’s walls, you wanted to scream, just hoping he would knock them down. Sadie’s pain was hard to witness. It was frustrating when she’d shut down, so afraid to move—afraid to let Jake go. The push and the pull and the pain that she feels, you feel. The times they shared together were amazing though and Zander would give anything for more time.
“Sadie Parker makes me want more. More hours in the day. More things to make her smile. More life. More of her.”
This is by far one of the most emotional books I’ve read. I laughed, I cried, I felt emotions I’ve been trying to hide way deep down inside myself. You will ache, you will be frustrated, but most of all—you will feel. Grateful for what you have, hopeful for your future. You will become attached to these characters and hope they can overcome all their obstacles.
J.L. Mac wrote a story that will have you glued to your kindle from start to finish. Her writing is flawless and her characters are perfectly imperfect. Loved this book!!!
About the Author
USA Today Best Selling Author J.L. Mac is twenty-seven years old and currently resides in El Paso, Texas, where she enjoys living near her family. She was born and raised in Galveston, Texas. J.L. admittedly has had a long and sordid love affair with the written word and has loved every minute of it. She drinks too many glasses of wine on occasion,and says way too many swear words to be considered “lady-like.” J.L. spends her free time reading, writing, and playing with her children.
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