They say when you take revenge against another you lose a part of your innocence.
But I’m not innocent.
I haven’t been for a very long time.
My innocence was stolen from me. Taken was the life I was supposed to have. The soul I was born with. The ruby heart embedded in a life full of hopes and dreams.
I never even had a choice.
I mourn that life. Mourn the what-ifs.
I’m ready to take back what was always meant to be mine.
But every plan has a fatal flaw. Sometimes it’s the heart.
**Due to the dark and explicit nature of this book, it is recommended for mature audiences only as some scenes may be particularly disturbing.**
So many emotions.
“The heart is a weapon.”
So many feelings.
“No one can ever hurt you if you can’t feel. So I don’t.”
So many questions that I NEED answers to.
So where to start?
Well let’s start at the beginning. Nina. She’s well… unwell. But you FEEL for her. You root for her. You hate her. You love her. Then you don’t know where to go. I wanted to hug her, slap her, and then cry with her. She broke my heart so many times. There were moments of clarity but was it too late? She’s broken and rightfully so. GOD did those chapters RIP MY FUCKING HEART OUT!!! I wanted to throw something, set someone on fire, it gutted me. I was left with tears streaming. Then … it goes from already bad to so much more. I just don’t even know what to say.
“Closing my eyes, I drift away to where nothing exists but the pleasure that builds inside.”
Be ready for a whole slew of What The Actual Fuck moments. Be ready to feel like you’re unsure if you really just read that … but I assure you – you did. You were mind fucked my friend and it’s okay. Embrace it. And join the support group because you’re going to want to talk with us.
I’ve had a while to sit on this review and try to find a way to convey my heart, and I’m still struggling. That’s what E.K. Blair does though. She makes you feel. Every book of hers I’ve come out either raw, emotional, or now – mind fucked.
I will say this. I love Declan. I hate Pike. I don’t know what the hell I feel for anyone else. I wanted to like people but I’m not sure if I could. I wanted to believe things but again I’m not sure if I can. It’s as if I don’t trust myself because what I SERIOUSLY thought I had figured out, I no longer know. Then I’m left wondering and speculating. Then there’s the damn trailer! Well I’m putting it in here because if you’re not sure if you should read this… I implore you to watch it and let me know how that works for you!
So the only person in this entire story I have any true feelings for is Carnegie. All I can hope for is that Carnegie and I can be friends and he can help me through my feelings. But again not sure if I should trust that either. I read this book early on and all I can say is that it’s still messing with my head.
It took me on a ride of pain, desperation and revenge. It was jaw-dropping, heart-stopping and a fantastic erotic thriller. I was gripped from page one and it didn’t let go. It’s a book that you won’t soon forget and is worthy of many re-reads. It is absolutely one of the top books I’ve read this year. I can’t stop thinking about it. I can’t stop talking about it. I open my kindle and fight the urge to read it again to find SOME clue as to WTF just happened. I’m still not sure my head has fully wrapped around this one. MIND BLOWN!
I know we don’t give stars on our reviews but seriously this is FIVE STARS!!!