Tristan hit rock bottom, and no one felt the impact harder than Danika. She was forced to see, in the most brutal of ways, that love does not conquer all. Bruised, bloody, and broken she had to walk away.
Picking up the pieces of your life after a tragedy is a daunting prospect, and that’s considering you still own all of the pieces. But what if you don’t? What if someone else owns those pieces, and those pieces are a part of your soul?
You dig deep and work with what you’ve got.
That’s what Danika told herself and believed, every single day, for years.
Tristan and Danika’s love had failed every test that life had thrown at them. She couldn’t forget that, not for one second. And if those tests had been overly harsh, well, she wasn’t one to wallow in self-pity. The failure was the thing she had to focus on. The failure was the lesson. She had no intention of working so hard to make it out of hell without learning that lesson well.
Over six years after the night that changed everything, Danika finds herself forced to spend the weekend constantly in Tristan’s company, as they attend the wedding of two of their dearest friends. It’s been long enough that she feels they can be friendly again without it destroying her peace of mind, but just a small amount of time in his presence has her remembering something she had forced herself to forget: There’d been a reason she’d gone through hell with this man, for this man, some true good to precede the bad.
She shocks herself by quickly giving in to a hunger that she never imagined could still consume her.
Even the best intentioned denial has a breaking point.
THE HARSH REALITY
After everything that’s happened, the rise and the fall, the pain and the aftermath, can these two navigate the waters of acute regret, survive the trials of coming face to face with all that they have lost, and find the strength to try again?
“I never cried a tear of self-pity. That had never been my poison. Bitter was my poison, and it took every ounce of character I possessed not to let it consume me.
I missed him. I couldn’t even lie to myself about it.
I missed him dreadfully.
Here we are again ladies, coming off of Rock Bottom where I ranted, and screamed and yelled about Tristan and his stupid mistakes and mindless decisions. I have a very different tone for this review my Schmexy friends. We left off with Tristan and Danika meeting at a coffee shop, just 6 months after the car accident with “asshole”. Yes I won’t even type his name. Let’s just call him asshole, who is no longer with us, burning in hell. In that meeting we learn Danika has sustained some serious injuries to her knee. We learn she can no longer dance, and will forever walk with a limp. Just typing it all out bothers the shit out of me. In addition to her knee injury, she lost the baby, and can no longer have children.
Right there for me, I have a hard-on for Tristan. I say to myself, most books have a happy ending. How on earth will Tristan ever redeem himself in Lovely Trigger? Not gonna happen in my book, on my time. Hells to the NO. I am TEAM DANIKA! And have been since Bad Things. This woman amazes me and is strong and takes what life dishes her and deals. And moves on, and makes the best of her situation.
Move on from Tristan, Danika. OH but she does. And that’s where Lovely Trigger picks up.
First of all let me just tell you how I felt reading this book. I finished this book weeks ago, and I still can look through my kindle at my highlights and re read certain scenes, and feel sick to my stomach. This story was so real, and heart-wrenching and it gutted me. Totally gutted me. I had this hollow feeling the whole entire time I read. I most definitely had tears in my eyes reading throughout this book.
This is a love story gone bad. Torn apart by drugs, and drinking, and Tristan’s weakness. I so wanted Tristan to pull out of it and fight. But he was too weak. Instead he chooses to fight now, 6 years after the accident.
6 years later. And they still haven’t made their way back to each other. Guts you! But on the upside Danika is working full-time in James Cavendish’s art gallery. Good work girl! So proud of you. But hearing how she can’t wear her high-heeled shoes, and must wear flats, and walks with this limp…still hurts my heart! Yet she moves forward and lives her life, dates, on and off. Nothing substantial, but she’s dating.
Now that Tristan is better and sober and getting on with this life, working at the Cavendish Hotel doing Magic shows, he wants to be Danika’s friend in the worst way. He misses her more than he needs air to breath. Again, gutting me. And he tries anything and everything to become her friend. Showing up places he knows she will be, going to her art gallery. But Danika is dead set on staying away from him; to protect her heart.
Danika just can’t handle being around Tristan…..
Every second that we stayed within each other’s vicinity was bad for my peace of mind. This little scene would haunt me for months. Just seeing him up close like this and breathing him in, it would mess me up, set me back.”
Tristan tries his best to get close to her, while she tries her best to stay away. And she does a pretty good job, saying the meanest of things to him. Telling Tristan she forgives him but can never forget…Until you get to that point where Tristan and his charms are no match for you any longer. And you must give in, and just….lay down on your back and give him what he wants.
And so they start to become friends again; spending time together, going to lunches, texting, talking….She’s very good and trying to fight off his advances, his sexual advances. But you are no match for Tristan Vega.
Oh God listen to him. He’s amazing. He’s seducing her again with his mind, body and soul. That’s what he does. He seduces you. He makes you almost forget that you can’t dance for a minute, b/c of his mistakes. Almost forget. Because for Danika, as much as she’s enjoying their wonderful reunion of feelings returned, or never left, and love and lust…she can’t and won’t ever forget….No children…and that is a touch pill to swallow. You can forgive him all you want, let him suck on your tits all you want, let him do amazing things to your body…
“Fuck me. Fuck my ass. Don’t hold back.”
I’ll hurt you if I don’t hold back.”
I don’t give a fuck. So I’ll be sore tomorrow. Shit happens. Bury that gorgeous cock inside of me. I can take it.”
OH girl…doesn’t sound like your having too much of a problem with your reunion does it?? HOLLA!
This book is a back and forth of tension between Tristan and Danika. She can’t seem to balance her friendship with her need for him sexually, and those feelings of not letting the past go. Even Frankie tells her to back off Tristan…
“When are you going to stop hurting him? When is it going to be enough for you? You wanted him punished; he’s been through hell. What more do you want?”
I’m telling you ladies, this book is not an easy read. But as much as you have to be gutted and hear such things like this, you also endure some of the most beautiful exchanges between these two lovers.
My heart breaks for them. Will these two be able to make it after such tragic events have taken place and torn them apart? Will Danika be able to handle living a life with Tristan with her injuries hanging over her head?
It just doesn’t seem possible. Which is why I cried and cried and cried.
“This little reunion has been a hopeless fantasy from the start.”
Oh Danika, only if you make it that way! Have faith that Tristan has changed, that his love runs deep…that everybody deserves a second chance at life, and love….I so want that for him…
Let me finish up by saying this…R.K. Lilley has a way with words. Her writing is just beautiful. I would read anything she wrote. Anything. Already she has me “Squeamish” with her kinky James Cavendish.
But for me, Tristan and Danika, this epic love story, this journey she takes you on, is by far one of my favorite series of all time. Hands down. It is on my re read list for sure.
I thought about this story for days after I finished it and wanted the world to read it, and experience these feelings as I did.
This story came full circle for me, and was oh so fucking happy with the ending.
5 HOLLAS (5 stars)!
Shout outs to my Smut girls who held my hand through this whole entire series….Rox…Melanie…Traci…Elisabeth…and the endless facebook thread of messages!! HOLLA!!!
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About R.K. Lilley
R.K. Lilley has been a writer since she can remember, but has held down some interesting jobs to pay the bills. For several years she was a first class flight attendant, and she always swore that she just had to write a book about it. Mixing her love of romance and all things BDSM, the Up In the Air Trilogy is her debut into the world of contempary romance and erotica. She is currently working on the final installment in the series. You can contact R.K. at Visit her Facebook page to keep up-to-date on what she’s working on