In Hopeless, Sky left no secret unearthed, no feeling unshared, and no memory forgotten, but Holder’s past remained a mystery. Still haunted by the little girl he let walk away, Holder has spent his entire life searching for her in an attempt to finally rid himself of the crushing guilt he has felt for years. But he could not have anticipated that the moment they reconnect, even greater remorse would overwhelm him… Sometimes in life, if we wish to move forward, we must first dig deep into our past and make amends. In Losing Hope, bestselling author Colleen Hoover reveals what was going on inside Holder’s head during all those hopeless moments—and whether he can gain the peace he desperately needs.
When I heard Colleen Hoover was writing Holder’s POV, I was so excited. And nervous. Excited because I loved Hopeless so much, and I just wanted more of Sky and Holder. Nervous because sometimes hearing the same story from somebody else’s POV can be annoying and repetitive. Um, you so do NOT get that in Losing Hope. I got so much more that I bargained for that’s for sure. I got a love story. Such a beautiful love story. This book made me tingle inside. It made me feel warm. It made me feel sad. And it made me cry. A lot. I needed to know what was going on in his head. This story rips you apart. My goodness Colleen, you do tell some serious tales. Where do you start with this boy, Dean Holder. This beautiful boy that harbors these feelings; loss of love, and guilt, and hurt. Having lost his best friend Hope when she was kidnapped right in front of his very eyes when he was just a little boy. How do you recover from that? Fast forward thirteen years and now dealing with the tragic death of his twin sister. What else can he handle? He’s broken. Angry. Lashing out at everyone and even getting arresting for defending his sister’s name. And those letters…My goodness, those letters just crushed me. Reading letter after letter from Holder to Les, pouring his heart out. He’s really is just Hopeless.
“How could they not see the signs? What kind of mother is she? What kind of brother doesn’t notice how depressed his own twin sister is?”
And then Sky. She appears out of nowhere. And he falls for her, hard. Can’t stop thinking about her. Hearing it now from Holder’s POV, this is why want to cry. To know that somebody could love that hard.
“I drink in every single moan and breath that passes her lips. And I let her keep her eyes closed, but I keep mine open and watch her steal the very last piece of my heart.”
I mean really? Who says that! And he dives in, head first. Trying to make it right for her. All along withholding the most important piece of information that will explain it all for Sky. It kills him. And you feel it. Colleen makes you feel it in his words. She’s fucking poetic. Her writing, it just takes you there, makes you feel that love, that hurt, that hold he has on her. Losing Hope for me topped Hopeless. It really brought it all full circle, everything that Sky and Holder share between each other. All of their memories, their feelings for one another, its all spelled out. As I read, I felt that pinch in my chest, that heavy heart. I love when I book can do that to me. This is the kind of story that stays with you. Yes this story is sad, yes this story is twisted. But it is so much more. We find love, true love. And in that very last and final chapter, when Colleen just wraps it all up. I cried. I cried like a baby.
“In order to miss someone, that means you were privileged enough to have them in your life to begin with.” – Dean Holder