How do you keep existing when your heart is so splintered, so completely torn to shreds, your pulse is fading?
You’re…broken. How do you move forward when every breath is nothing more than a constant ache? Living becomes an insidious reminder that you threw away the single largest part of yourself. Your…soul. No amount of distraction can pull you from the torture of losing your…life.
Now that Emily Cooper has walked away from her first love, she finds herself running toward her only love. Unraveling fast, but clinging to hope, Emily risks all she has left on the man that has consumed her every thought and dream since the day they met. Will Gavin take her back? And if so, will their reunion be a collision of two hearts destined to complete one another and rekindle a love that knew no boundaries? Or will scars from their past rip open, tearing slowly at what each of them was meant to be? Can fate, the ultimate game changer, mend the shattered road it laid out from the start?
Only time will tell…
I reviewed Collide by Gail McHugh when we started our blog. It was very important to me to get it right, since this book was very personal to me, and probably was one of the first true book hangovers I suffered from.
Before starting Schmexy Girl Book Blog (notice the similarity in the name??) I was an extremely avid reader, I purchased Collide the week it was released. I had a love/hate relationship with the book, because I absolutely loved the story but hated how Emily allowed the abuse in her relationship with Dillon to continue. Pulse is completely and totally everything I would have ever hoped it would be!
Pulse starts off where Collide left off. Emily Cooper has left Dillon the douchemonkey on the night before their wedding after allowing him to basically use her and completely mind fuck her into submission, I don’t really know what else to call it, other than WRONG. Emily finds strength throughout this book and she is no longer a victim. She shows that as women we can overcome abusive relationships and there is help available. However, Dillon is a manipulative, abusive, piece of shit, and he will not just give up. Emily doesn’t allow him to beat her down any more and she finally fights back! She has realized that Gavin Blake is where she belongs, and she is going to fight for him!
Gavin is in so much pain over the loss of Emily that he has left for Mexico to escape and not have to witness the other half of his soul marry another man. Gavin is drinking his pain away, and doing other sorts of things to work Emily out of his system. I felt like I could literally feel his pain, knowing how deep his love for her was. When he sees her, his pain turns to anger, and he has to decide to give her a chance, or let her walk away and continue their misery.
“I stared at the ceiling half the night wondering if I could honestly go the rest of my life without kissing these lips ever again.”
I love how intense their love is. Gavin literally makes Emily a stronger woman. He doesn’t need to break her down to make himself more of a man, he builds her up and gives her strength. It is the kind of love without competition, he wants her strong, happy, and loved.
Of course Gavin is still Gavin… He is still alpha in the shmexy (schmexy) department, and boy do I love it!
“I’m going to fuck you right now, Emily. I’m going to bring you so much pleasure you’ll never think about walking away from me again.”
Their story isn’t without complication, there are so many issues that Emily has to work through. Gavin’s patience and love is tested so much, he has to deal with so many demons, but what relationship doesn’t have drama? No one is perfect, and what Emily endured throughout her relationship with Dillon is not as uncommon as we may think. The men who come after an abusive relationship have to work at building trust, but Gavin knows life without Emily is far worse than any issues they may have. Now, I will warn you that I had tears streaming down my face, and I almost through my kindle (again). I am almost crying NOW thinking about it. It is absolutely going to rip your heart out, but I promise you that no love is without pain, and once I was able to get my Pulse started again I picked the kindle up and finished this BEYOND 5 star book!!
“The good, the bad, the in between. It’s ours. We own it.”
I have been so blessed and beyond humbled to have had many conversations with Gail, she is truly a readers’ author. Our very small book club was fortunate to have her come into our group and talk with us about Collide. Jesey, I, and the rest of the Schmexy Book Club can NOT thank her enough for being so humble as to spend time talking to a small group of women who fell in love with Gavin and Emily! Thank you!!!
6 ++++++++++++ STARS!!!!!
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About the Author
I’ve always been a lover of writing, but mostly dabbled in creating poetry while raising my three beautiful children. I am grateful my husband of fifteen years has supported me—albeit sometimes kicking and screaming—as I pursue this “hobby” of mine. Without his help, writing would be an impossible endeavor.
In late June 2012, I felt an urgent tug of my pen, and I began writing one of my first novels, Collide. Although I thought it might never see the light of day, it gave me the courage to plunge headfirst onto a path I had never considered before.