(17+) This book contains mature subject matter that is not suitable for those under the age of 17.
Wow… I have said that multiple times over and over because that is really how it sums up my emotions… SCATTERED all over the place. This story was definitely not what I was expecting. I try to stay away from reviews prior to reading a book because it can sometimes skew my own review so I was going based solely on the synopsis and the gorgeous cover. My heart is still broken and the pain I felt is raw. I literally started this book at 8 pm and didn’t sleep so I could finish at 4:25 am. It has been so long that a book has forced me to stay awake because the idea of putting it down was not possible. I HAD TO KNOW!!
Candace Parker is a beautiful young woman trying to overcome an extremely demanding family dynamic. Her mother and father don’t feel her goals and aspirations are good enough for their daughter. She is a dancer, an extremely gifted one, and it is her life. Candace lives with her roommate Kimber, they are close and share everything like sisters would do. Her other best friend is Jase, I heart Jase big time! He is kind, supportive, and just loves her for who she is. However, since dance is her life, she is very high strung. She follows the rules and after a lot of convincing she decides to cut loose a little. Candace seems to be enjoying her new attitude on life until she finds herself in a horrific violent situation. Thank GOD someone finds her and gets her help!
I cried, and cried, I felt like I lived it and my heart was shattered with Candace. I literally felt every emotion I can name. I have never felt so absolutely raw after reading a book, as I did after Fading. I felt her pain throughout the entire ordeal. Thank god for Jase, he was everything you would hope for in a for and I really felt so connected to him. I don’t really know how to explain the emotions that this book evoked from me. Jase proved just how much you can love someone that isn’t bound to you by blood.
“I’m sad because I love you. When your heart hurts, so does mine. Your pain is my pain.”
My heart broke for Candace as her friendship with Kimber suffered. Everything in Candace’s life suffered, her school, job, relationships, and her dancing. All I wanted to do was give her a hug and I just kept thinking she needed help. Jase & his boyfriend Mark were amazing but they too didn’t know what to do to help her. Things change when their friend Ryan starts to become a part of their lives. Oh Ryan…if you thought I loved Jase, well Ryan is my #1. I can’t even explain how amazing he is. Their story is woven so amazingly and the patience and what he gives Candace is just beyond amazing. Again I found myself with TEARS streaming down my face for my heart was filled with so much love and hope for them.
“I promise you, nothing will change the way I look at you. Nothing will change what you do to me when you’re next to me. You make my heart beat in a completely different way- nothing will ever change that.”
However, life for Candace is not ever going to be easy, and Ryan’s life is flawed as well. They both have a host of issues and I prayed that they could find their way together. I will end on this. This is probably the MOST heartbreakingly beautiful story I have read in a VERY long time. Since I finished this book I have not been able to read another without them coming up short. It is about pain, love, healing, and so so much more. The writing is amazing, to be able to draw someone in and keep them captive to me is a gift. It is not a lighthearted easy read, and I can NOT even fathom the emotions that the author must have felt writing this book. I just know that this story will stay with me for a very long time, and I have become emotionally invested in Candace, Ryan, Jase, Mark and Kimber!
“I’m fading.” I feel the heat of my tears as they linger down my cheeks. “He took all my light, and I’ve been fading ever since.”